It's not all that obvious, but it's there ... always there ... always has been there. It's possible that I could use to benefit from a helpful pill, but I'm anti-drug. Well, except for the occasional ibuprofen. Since I was a little girl I've been aware of so many things around me. I'm sure that isn't all that unusual. Many people are observant. For me, however, I take things in and think, THINK about those things I see and/or hear and I do NOT let them out of my head. Again, this may not be all that strange. Lord knows, there is a lot more strange out there than not. I'm really bothered by my melancholy thoughts. AT this point in my life, I've pretty much accepted that this was just the way I am ... it's in my makeup. Each morning I can dress up my face with real makeup, but at then end of the day when I wash it all off ... the same face is staring right back at me in the mirror. What I do wish for is that I wouldn't feel disappoin...