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One of those days ...

Having my doubts about "things".

Feeling a little lonely because I rarely have adult conversation outside of my husband who I barely spoke with yesterday - he worked so late.

The holidays are coming up QUICKLY ... I always stress.

My littlest one is a total spitfire and some days I just feel defeated by her ... I need strength.

Not knowing what tomorrow will bring sometimes is difficult ... I wish I could see into the future (this is a vague thought, but it is in regards to my husband's job).

I am feeling way too much self pity.


Let me turn this post around and say that there are so many blessings in my life ...
  • My husband who loves me even though I am nutty sometimes
  • My children who are all healthy and thriving
  • My FAITH which is growing ... participating in our parish RCIA program has been such a great thing

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Anonymous said…
I struggle with self-pity too. I hate it about myself, but I think it is the curse of the human condition to struggle to give those things to God.
12:53 PM
Anonymous said…
I think it is very normal to have doubtful days. What I always admire about you is you are quick to remind yourself of your MANY blessings!

{W}
1:19 PM
thesixburghmom said…
((E)), I'm sorry you're feeling down. And I agree with {W}, you always recognize the blessing in your life. Just because you're incredibly blessed doesn't mean you can't feel a bit defeated sometimes.
3:53 PM
southernjoy said…
((((hugs)))
10:36 PM
Anonymous said…
I love reading your blog. I always seem to relate to something I visit. Thanks for sharing part of yourself with us here in blogosphere.
1:22 AM
Anonymous said…
HUGS [E]. Hope you are having a better day. :)
9:02 AM
Margaret in Minnesota said…
Are you still hanging in there? :)

I loved how you turned this post around, and I LOVED that bit about our husbands putting up with their nutty wives. Aren't we blessed?

And do you know, I have shed a fair share of tears over my littlest spitfire the past few days. She combines her father's will with a three-year-old's irrationality. The result is lethal to my inner peace!

She's awfully cute during her down time, however, and that's her saving grace.
12:51 PM
june cleaver said…
Congratulations... you are a good mother.
I can't tell you how many times I have gone to bed only to lay awake beating myself up for all of the battles I have lost and the guilt I carry.
We just want the best for our babies.
We just want the best for our husband.
We just want joy, peace, and calm.

Mother Theresa even felt defeated... for years.
11:15 PM
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