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I'm totally FAILING at this blog thing


Once upon a time I blogged every day.
Then my children created a busy life I could never have imagined when I was a little girl wishing to be a mommy.
I'm not going to blame my children.
I'll just blame my husband.
Can I?

Some mommies are really good at their job.
Maybe they have a great calendar to rely on (I do)
Maybe they plan out their weekly menus (I try)
Maybe they don't need a weekly salary beyond hugs and kisses (oh, how I wish)

Lately I feel like I am just throwing money this direction and that direction.
Those dollars are not just for the kids, but the wonderful home we live in that seems to want to fall apart at the worst possible time.
Some days I think I need to get out of this house and FIND ME A JOB THAT PAYS (money)



REALITY sets in and I realize ...
  • My children need me
  • I actually homeschool one of them
  • My girls and I spend a lovely amount of time driving back and forth to those swim practices that they LOVE
  • I haven't had a real paying job in 14 years and my resume is pretty pitiful
  • I can't believe that I have been a mom for almost 15 years and in just 3 years my oldest will be in COLLEGE ... and that booger is a SMART one

START praying for me ... WILL YA?
I need a good sense of direction just like my girls
I need to breathe in and breathe out ... knowing that each day will come and go
I need to know I CANNOT do this alone
I need to start praying MORE
and MORE
and more
...


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Sarah@AlpinePoppy said…
That was quite possibly THE BEST blog post I have ever read. I can relate so much! Thanks!
11:42 PM
Anonymous said…
AMEN SISTER!!
1:48 AM
Tiffany said…
I understand...so much! Pray for me too!
9:13 AM
Emily said…
I am praying for you, my friend. I love your blog...I always get excited when you show up in my feed reader. I'm coming to Little Rock on the 30th. My best friend bought me a plane ticket for my birthday. I'll be in town for 11 days. Let's go get coffee sometime while I'm there. Looking forward to seeing you! Oh, and hang in there. Our job is the most difficult in the world, but we both know it is the best.
9:42 AM
Beth said…
I feel exactly the same. EXACTLY. I have been back and forth about the job thing and being out of the job world so long that the thought is daunting. I just need to be content that God knows I am exactly where I am supposed to be. But it's hard. I'll pray for you...please pray for me, too!
10:25 AM
Sarah said…
I think we all start praying more and more and more the older our kids get!
9:05 PM
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