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Thinking of my DAD today ...

It has been nearly 2 months since my Dad passed away from his long battle with cancer. Most of the time I feel okay about things ... my Dad is no longer in pain, but in peace. However, there are moments where I am ANGRY that his life was shortened. He died at 69, but in ways he died even sooner. I wish that he could have really savored his last years doing things he loved ... visiting family, tinkering in his garage, going to the beach, and taking walks with my Mom. I wish I didn't feel MAD that he didn't get to do those things, but I do. My children will likely NOT remember their "Poppie" the way that I would have liked them to. That makes me SAD.



Mostly I just MISS my Dad ...












*that little girl in blue floral would be me
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Anonymous said…
The 34th anniversary of my dad's birthday and death day are on July 26th. He died on his 40th birthday. I was 11, and I still miss him. I, too, wish my children and now grandchildren had been able to know him. I am comforted in knowing that he has been with me and with them all these years, and I know he is waiting for me. I wish you peace.
4:20 PM
southernjoy said…
I'm so sorry. Know that you all brought him SO MUCH JOY, even in those sickest moments at the end.
10:38 PM
Anonymous said…
Your little minnies will know your father through your great love for him. Remember, because of Christ's victory, death no longer separates us from one another. Your father is very much alive and close to you.

I'm praying for you during this hard time.
7:56 AM
Margaret in Minnesota said…
I don't know that I can add to the beautiful sentiments expressed above, but I can reassure you that you have my prayers and my love.

Because you do.

Hugs from afar,

Margaret
8:56 AM
Karen Edmisten said…
I'm so sorry he's gone. I know you know, as Katherine said, he is just beyond the veil, but the feelings are still so hard. Pray for him, ask him to pray for you, and I know that your girls will know him through your love.
9:55 AM
Anonymous said…
Many Hugs E, I know it is hard....

Allyson
6:29 PM
Hen Jen said…
I'm so sorry for you. Here's a cyber hug...

My Father in law died Jan. 13th. We think of him daily, he was only 62. I am angry once in a while, but it seems pointless- mostly I am just sad and miss him and miss the chance to spend time with him and make him proud of us. I do think it was unfair, and that he was way too young.

so sorry, I just try to think of the happy memories.

grace and peace to you.
10:52 PM
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